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Lord it’s Me Again

The word that goes in you, it marinates and gets in you.

Psalm 139:1-13

O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether. Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it. Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee. For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb.

You have searched me. How many feel that the Lord has searched you? So who knows you better than the Lord? No one. When David got excited about something, he put a tune to it. Send for the chief musician, not the understudy, because people need to hear what I have to say. God knows our ways. He knows what we will say in the next moment before its even uttered from our mouths. When you know to do good and don’t do it, its not because you can’t do it, its because you desire NOT to do it. We only bring up excuses because we don’t want to do it. This is a man talking to a God he has a relationship with. So when you say words, you know they are powerful. You can kill with words, which are worse than a bullet or knife, because words kill the soul. So when you tell someone you hate their guts, or everything that makes them exist, that is a strong saying. Sometimes people get upset with you, not realizing their not upset with you but with themselves.

Lord it’s me again. You remember the one who was hard headed and didn’t want to come to Church, and fought you every step of the way? How many times have you heard people say “I love the Lord,” when everything they do is against the Lord? Their ready to fight you. But the Lord doesn’t need anyone to fight for Him, because He died for you.

We can’t go anywhere where He doesn’t know us, or see the mess we’re sitting in. You know you can’t be doing stuff in the dark. If you are, your deeds are evil. There is no darkness in Christ. Darkness to Him is like Him wearing a permanent night vision. Natural eyes can’t see in darkness, but He sees everything you do and the intent of your heart. When the Lord looked for one of His disciples, they were hid; everywhere else but the House of God. I’m not talking about the physical House of God. Everyone figures that they have to be on their knees to be praying. It’s what a man thinks in his heart that will he be. If you’re on your knees and thinking wrong, your still sinning. Lord it’s me again, standing in the need of prayer? Why? Because I’m trying to fight me. You’ll never win the battles fighting against yourself, because yourself has to have the last word. The Lord says no…let me have the last word in your life. We always tell ourselves that we can’t do certain things, because we always put limits on ourselves. You know why I can’t do it? Because there is something holding me back. Lord its me…again.

David would do stuff. Did you know he was a murder, adulter, and abuser? But how could it be said that David was a man after God’s own heart? When David did what he did, he knew how to go to God and repent, and fall on his face prostrate and dress in sackcloth and ashes. It wasn’t him putting on a show, he was being genuine. How many times have you gotten on your knees and said to God “I’m jacked?” How many have ever prayed “God forgive me for being me?” Or “Lord why did you choose me?”  God is trying to tell us He chose us because He knows us. Inside and out, our whole mindset. Nobody, man or woman knows the heart of another. We were never set a judges over each other. No man can tell you where you go. The point is, God knows you. You know how people say they know you like the back of their hand? God knows you. He died for you. Not knowing you in the physical state, but in the spiritual state. He knew you before the foundation of the world. He knew you, you were already predestined, and if so, you had every choice in the world to change that route. It won’t work, but it sounds good. So God is trying to us know He knows our thoughts before we ever think it. So when we come to Him and say “its me again,” know this, He knows what your coming for, but He wants to see how much it effects you. Are you shaken or stirred? I’ve not given your the spirit of fear, but of peace love and a sound mind. What does that mean? Things shouldn’t soon shake you. We can’t be disturbed because someone said no.

You have to realize that while you were getting your clothes on, He already knew what was going to happen. Do you know these things are tests to see if we’ll break down? And we do it without no problems at all, we breakdown. I will breakdown Lord, but I need You to pick me up again after the breakdown. The Lord knows that when we get into situations in our lives, He knows when we say “Lord its me again.” He is not a condemning God. He know that already, so come to him with honesty and genuineness.

We must believe that when everyone else fails, Jesus doesn’t. People fail in your life because they don’t know the outcome of what your life will be. But Christ gives you the real deal. He knows everything about you. The moment you’ll cry at the moment you’ll cry, and the moment you’ll lie at the moment you lie.

Romans 8:28-39

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren. Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified. What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us? He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things? Who shall lay any thing to the charge of God’s elect? It is God that justifieth. Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

All that you’re going through, see or feel, is for His purpose. A daddy that loves you will always set you up for a blessing. Because what people may think is for your bad, God already knows its for your good. Because I love being set up by God. Jesus set me up. All things work together for the good to them who are the called according to His purpose. As a Child of God your will is not your own but to do His will. So the trials He takes you through, will not compare to the trails of another person. What they need to make them be real will all work together to make you…We all work together. If you’re jacked up, down trodden and everything, and everyone is jacked up, how can you help anyone?

Do you get dirty in your justified body, are you filthy in your justified body? You haven’t took it to the dry cleaners in so long. Some of us are walking around with a dirty justified body. Some of us are nasty. How do you know its dirty? It is God that justifies. Is it man that justifies? Man can’t do anything for me, he has too much of a mouth and is too opinionated. Man justalies. When things don’t go well in the way they want for their glory, they get mad with God. If you’re representing God, they’ll get mad at you. Who has rights to blame the Children of God. No one can talk about me except my God because He is justified, because He knew me before I even came down here. He knows you, and if He sees something in you He doesn’t like, know this, He’ll take you through a test. He wants to make you, so He’ll break you down. You have to destruct so you can constructed. When you can’t get it right, He’ll put TNT on you, and blow up everything. When He puts tests and trials on you, its to make you and not break you. So understand this, God will do what He said He’ll do, to make you what He wants you to be. He wants you to be an awesome powerful saint and minister for Him. You can’t be that if you have a lot of issues constantly going on in your life, because you’re too busy worrying about the issues.

So when you come before the Lord and say Lord its me again, He already knows what you’ll say to Him. How many of you ever brought God a problem and didn’t bring a solution? When you come to God, don’t come with all these problems and no solution. You are you’re own worst enemy. As long as you allow this world to control you, you are at the beck and call of this world. You can’t allow this world to dictate you. You should be praying to the Lord “deliver me from me. Lord its me again. I can’t get over myself.”

Galatians 6:9-10

And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith.

Lord its me again, help me not to be me, help me to be what you want me to be. You need to spend quality time with the Lord, not quantity. A matter of a fact. In order to have a relationship with any person, you need to spend quality time with them. God wants you to spend quality time with Him. You should set an A/B/C time plan with that personal place or thing to fulfill the need of that relationship. Then spend quality time to complete that cycle of commitment, and above all things do not let a laps of time take place between A/B/C plan because a laps in time will bring about an air of lackadaisicalness and disappointment.

Do You Just like to Repeat or Do you Need to be Set Free, Part 2

When the Lord comes, will you be ready? It’s all about doing what God is saying, and that is to be a witness for Him. Last Sabbath we talked about are you caught in a repeat. Do you want to keep repeating what you did last year? Didn’t you enjoy what you did last year? One of the things I was trying to do is clean up my act last year. How many know that I’m not impervious that I make mistakes? That is because I’m on my way to salvation too. If I know a little bit more than you do, I’m glad to help. We have to meet the need of the Lord. How long hault you between 2 opinions?

Do you want to repeat or do you want to be free? If you repeat a situation and not be set free from it, sometimes we call that a habit, but you’ll be bound. When you allow someone to lock you in, it’s so hard to get free and you’re bound. Most people allow Satan to lock them in, he knows the combination. You who don’t know or understand that there is a code, you’ll continue to do what Satan tells you to do. If a person allows themselves to be carried away with habitual habits it will carry them and others around them away. The word habit is doing something that becomes almost involuntary. For instance looking both ways before crossing a street. Habits can be good, but they can also be bad. If it’s a habit, then its an addiction.

Habits form who you are sometimes. You get in a habit of saying things, acting a certain way, in an habitual personality. Sometimes to such an extent that they can destroy you. Good habits can destroy you too. Have you ever seen someone who brushes their hair 5000 times or brush their teach 16 times? You can’t get anywhere because of obsession. When you allow a thing to take control of your physical state or body, then you’ve allowed that thing to become a part of you as a person whether good or bad.

Sin. Sin can be your friend. Sin can be habitual. Think about some of the habits that you have that have become a sin to you. Have they become a part of you? People have a bad habit of ___________________? You have a bad habit of _________________________? Then you have another bad habit of__________________________? If you allow sin to become habitual in your body, you’ve become addicted. What do you usually do when you become addicted? You make a space in your life for it. You will work for it, create a place in your house for it, change your friends according to it; you create a space in your life for sin. You know you can love someone until you sin? “But its love pastor.” But love can be a sin. In this respect, I love him so much that you did what, gave him everything; my money, my time; I gave him everything, and got nothing in return. If you allow it, it will control your life. Habits do nothing but control. I do know that if a man or woman allows habits to exist in their life, they will eventually turn bad. Well, let’s say you have a habit of laughing. There is  serious situation that just transpired, and you start laughing. But you laugh all the time, and its a habit for you. How will you be received? Habits, habitual; that means you repeat it over and over again.

As you know addiction means a state of being enslaved to a habit or practice. Enslaved. You can be enslaved to sin. When it says to do this, you’ll do it whether you like it or not. Why can’t you be free? Because you enjoy being bound. You constantly want to be bound even though you say “Lord I want to be free.” Someone will steal your soul and put a combination on it so even the Lord can’t get in. They got in through your heart. When they got inside, Satan wants you for himself, so he’ll put a combination on there that you can’t get in. Does something have your soul locked up that you can’t get rid of that habitual, addictive type thing in your life? Some of us try to get over and say “It’s a generational curse.” But when does it stop? Generation means your giving it age and time, and nurturing it. My uncle did it, my cousin did it, my dad did it, now I’m doing it. So we blow it off. The Lord says “Well don’t you want to be free?” Then you say “Yes, but its a generational curse.” It has more hold on you than the Lord. Then people won’t own up to the fact that they’re the problem. They can’t see themselves because they’re caught in their own sin.

Satan will come to you disguised as God, and when you think its Him, it’s actually Satan. When you pray, do you pray out loud? Do you think Jesus only has ears? No, Satan and all his imps have ears too. When you’re born, there is a demon assigned to you. There was a show on years ago where a spiritual medium had a studio audience in which he told people in the audience about things their dead relatives said to them. The Word of God says when a person dies, they have no dealings in the world of the living. So people are captivated by these spiritual mediums who can seemingly talk to the dead. Its a problem now, because now you believe in what this spiritual medium can do and say. What you didn’t know is your uncle doesn’t know that man, but the spirit that was assigned to your uncle knows; a demonic force assigned to mimic your ways and voice so that it can appears as you to get someone else in this world convinced that the spiritual world exists through a medium. People fall for that. Satan has demons assigned. Millions upon millions upon millions of demons, and they’re all assigned to people, that is the only way Satan can cause you to fail. Satan is not omnipresent, omniscient; the demons report back to Satan to let him know what’s going on. So what does Satan do, he sends his demons out to reinforce a habit. Whatever is binding you, that demon is going to enhance it. Satan uses every tool possible. He uses your habitual mindset to blind you to what the Word of God says. This is how Satan drives you to make mistakes in your life because you’re hearing Satan’s or his imps voice and not the Lord’s. So when everything works out terribly for you, do you blame Satan? No you blame God. How many know that God gives your free will and this is a policy He deals with.

Why do you think Satan went to Eve first? Adam was first. Eve was the lesser of the two. Where did Satan catch Eve? She was admiring the tree God said not to eat from. Eve told Satan the Lord said we are not going eat of the fruit of this tree. That means she understood, and was disobedient; your senses were over flooded. Satan used your habits and addictions to drive your away from God. So when she ate the fruit, did she die? No, that solidified in her mind that what God said about her dying was a lie, because she did not die instantly. Satan became powerful to her. When she ate of the fruit it changed her seed making it deceived. So the only thing left for her to do was to mess up Adam’s seed, because her eyes were opened. When she ate of the fruit she did die: 1) she lost the love connection with God 2) she lost her ability to obey God 3) she lost her ability to decipher. It became habitual when Eve and Adam ate of that fruit. When they lost connection with their God because of something that they did, that is why its hard for us to stay focused anymore in the Church, that they stop coming to church. That they say “I don’t need this, I’ve got Jesus on my side.” None of us are Gods. How powerful do you think you are? You that powerful that you can go on your own?

Can you run on last years food or gas? You need freshness. You can’t live on an old anointing. You cannot live on an old anointing. His mercies are new every morning, but if you’re jacked up on the old one, you’ll never know when His mercies come. What did the Children of Israel do when they were set free from Egypt? They went back to Egypt in their hearts. They were living on the past, and made it their future. You cannot live on old stuff. You cannot put new wine in an old bottle because old wine has an effervescence which causes pressure and will break the new bottle. You need to get rid of your habit and allow God to give you the authority and power to move from where you are now. That is why Satan wanted to get inside of Eve, to mess up the generations to come. He knew that if he got Eve he’d get Adam.

Mark 7:15-16

There is nothing from without a man, that entering into him can defile him: but the things which come out of him, those are they that defile the man. If any man have ears to hear, let him hear.

Luke 6:40-49

The disciple is not above his master: but every one that is perfect shall be as his master. And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but perceivest not the beam that is in thine own eye?Either how canst thou say to thy brother, Brother, let me pull out the mote that is in thine eye, when thou thyself beholdest not the beam that is in thine own eye? Thou hypocrite, cast out first the beam out of thine own eye, and then shalt thou see clearly to pull out the mote that is in thy brother’s eye. For a good tree bringeth not forth corrupt fruit; neither doth a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit. For every tree is known by his own fruit. For of thorns men do not gather figs, nor of a bramble bush gather they grapes. A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh. And why call ye me, Lord, Lord, and do not the things which I say? Whosoever cometh to me, and heareth my sayings, and doeth them, I will shew you to whom he is like: He is like a man which built an house, and digged deep, and laid the foundation on a rock: and when the flood arose, the stream beat vehemently upon that house, and could not shake it: for it was founded upon a rock. But he that heareth, and doeth not, is like a man that without a foundation built an house upon the earth; against which the stream did beat vehemently, and immediately it fell; and the ruin of that house was great.

Whatever you exhibit shows what’s inside of you. You want to be set free? You have to admit that you are bound. The hardest thing for people in the Church is to admit their wrong because they can’t see. They can only see themselves. When you think yourself something the you’re nothing. Nothing makes a mess of everyone around it. Allow God to deliver you. If you can’t allow God to restore you back, then why be in his Kingdom? You are not a god. God is God, we’re just here. We have to know Him for ourselves. No one else can give an account for you. We have to give an account for ourselves. You can’t go further if you haven’t been obedient. How can you say you’re a child of the King and can’t be obedient to Him? Obedience is better than sacrifice, no matter what abilities you may have. Move when God says to move. If you can’t hear Him clearly the how will you know when to move. If you can’t hear Him then you need to spend time with Him to hear His voice.