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Do You Just like to Repeat or Do you Need to be Set Free, Part 1

How many times did you fall for the same type of man or woman and saw it coming? Wait for it. They say I love you you go…wait for it…wait for it….and then boom after you say it and you’re locked and you’re back to the same problem you had in your previous relationship. You start seeing the same type of girl or guy. Then you start saying the same things over again: “That man or that woman is no good, there is no good in them.” Were they really or is it just you? Being locked back in the same things of the past recurring in your mind and life. Lets go a little deeper.

When Jesus said forgive your brother, forgive your sister…and you asked Him why? You asked God why. Our hearts fall immediately back to what they’ve done to us. So now, there’s a time going on. Now you have frozen time to take time out to go back in the past of an event that happened years ago, bringing it from the past to the present. You stopped God working on you so you can take Him back to the past, so He could see what was bothering you…what was said that was bothering you. You put God on pause, and take Him back, so that we can do what? Reminisce, complain; when Jesus said just to forgive your brother. Could it be something else more than what they did that you are latching to that your are reminiscing over? Could it be something that is in you; something that has locked itself in you that you cannot get over? Is it that little thing that sits in the corner of your mind that tells you, “They owe you…until they fix that little thing, I cannot see anything.” You can’t get over that past. You must remember, those who continue to live in their past it will become your future.

People are doing the exact same things over and over again falling for the same statement, phrase an action over and over again. Could it be a generational curse, or could it be that you don’t know how to let go? “Well I’m like this because it was my momma, it was my daddy. I treat you the way I treat you because they did not treat me right. Its your fault that I’m smacking this person to death.” But its not their fault. Its the sin in me that makes me do the things in me, its the sin in me. They don’t understand that the God in you wouldn’t make you do what you do to your sister, mother, friend, father….its not the God in you, its the sin in you. Do you like to repeat? We always get upset with ourselves, some of us like to abuse ourselves because we can’t get over us, not remembering that we’re stronger than the thing, smarter than the thing, not remembering that it was things that happened in the past. Now our past has become our future. That is why we fall for the same old antics and statements, gimmicks and movements over and over again, because the first time it happened we didn’t get it straight and forgive ourselves.

Do you know why its so important for a woman to wait until she gets married before sleeping with anyone? When she does, what’s in her, she shares her soul. It’s when you have relations when he injects inside of you a seed of life, your body responds with an egg. Every egg that comes out of your body needs to be fertilized, and given an identity. So its in there floating around looking for “who shall I be?” When God places a soul in that body, that soul becomes a living breathing creature that exists because of the Will of God, not man. So that woman begins to nurture that seed that has been given to her by that man. A woman’s egg is just like a chicken’s egg which has no life. Once that one little sperm gets inside of the egg, it locks the door, turning the egg into a hard shell that the sperm inside has the only key to. That woman is to keep herself wholly until God has sent her a man. It’s he who finds himself a wife finds a good thing. But the wife has be ready to receive the identity. You don’t go shooting your junk everywhere, hoping that it lands somewhere. You don’t shoot your seed at anything, because you’ll get what you ask for. A man putting his identity out is like putting your seal of who you are on just anything. Young men think that because they can flip it out and flip it right, that makes you a man. No, that makes you stupid. Every woman’s womb is not for every man. That is telling me that my sperm is sacred. Your egg is sacred.

Men are told in the back of their minds that’s what you do, you put your seed in anything. As a man’s seed enters the egg, it releases life and that more abundantly, releases identity, becoming a DNA increaser, forming life; an identity. At that moment that woman’s body becomes that man’s body. She can’t live without him. She might not say it, but she shows it. That man is not sealed, a man puts it out, a woman receives it. She changes chemically to receive it. He doesn’t have any connection to her chemically, but she has connection to him chemically. That is why some women can never get along with any other man except the one that…no matter how he treated her. The man has no chemical connection, just a physical one, that is why its so easy for him to release freely with another woman. He’s selling himself for free, not realizing that he’s giving his identity away to something he has no connection with. She feels that he loves her enough to release his seed inside of her, and to be bound to her. If he’s not bound to you mentally, he’s not bound to you physically. That is why when a man lies with a woman he’s not planning on being with, he will rarely look her in the eye or kiss her, but do everything below the neckline. The gateway to the soul is the eyes, that is why he does not look at her. He wants to release his seed for a moment of pleasure, for a feeling, she releases herself for a connection. That is why she takes it hard when he walks out the door. Its serious.

That is the reason that we can’t do what the Lord wants us to because we have holes inside of us. The Lord wants you fully, so when He releases the Holy Ghost inside of you, it changes…just as though that man who releases inside of you created in you an identity, Christ is trying to create an identity in you of Him. This is the problem. We repeat the things we do in life with relationship because we have not yet come into the understanding that we’re more than conquers. A woman’s body and eggs are all precious even though they have not life. You have an egg that stays warm and moist and ready. When you go through your cycle, it goes “ain’t no good.” During your cycle, you spew unwanted eggs and are tossed away. When a man does not ejaculate, his body absorbs the life back inside, he keeps it. A man does not have a cycle, because he keeps his identity.

Most men are not aware that they bring life to the relationship. That is why a woman can’t have a relationship with another woman, because she does not bring life. Its like rubbing two eggs together; do you get another egg? No. A man is not even aware of the authority and power in his loins. It’s about releasing in you a woman who is an incubator, a provider of the eggs. When her body chemically changes, before a woman has sexual intercourse with a man her body smells like roses. After she has been intimate with that man, his chemicals are mixing with his chemicals. And now she does not smell like a beautiful bouquet of roses. That is why they do foreplay, to try to get her to accept whatever he is try to do. Her body says he is chemically like this. It is the same way when God releases the Holy Ghost inside of you. It changes you. Satan can’t get in anymore like he use to. So Satan says he has to find another way in. The Lord has changed the combination, I can’t get in. Let me go back in the past, when you use to love this, so Satan goes “Let me do this…” So he brings people from your past that your bound by, and they come into your life straight forward saying “Do you remember what we use to do?” To insight in you a feeling, and you go back to that moment when that situation happened. Satan can’t get in to you like he use to, so he wants you to repeat; he doesn’t want you to be free. So you prepare yourself to receive what he has for you. Isn’t this what we do with God? Jesus has everything that we need. But we can’t get with Jesus because we keep comparing what He has to what Satan is doing. We can’t build a good relationship with our Lord and Saviour Jesus because we still concern with what Satan did to us, enjoy it, bask in it. But the Lord says be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind.

 

Romans 7:20-25

Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me. For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.

 

What is it saying? Do you like to repeat or do you want to be free? What are generational curses? What we just read. You know my sister Barbra, she does the same things. She’ll listen to the guy, and then she’ll sleep with him after 2 minutes. After you’ve slept with so many of them, you’ll never get the one who is for you because all the rest of them have put so many codes on your butt, that nobody can get in. The right one has to break the 1st code, the next code, and so on. The hardest one you have to break is the 1st one.

Juanita Bynum wrote a book called “No More Sheets.” She said she had so many men back and forth in her bed, she didn’t know whether she was coming or going. If the guy that comes after you who really loves you is not a locksmith, he won’t get anything, but the remnants of all those other guys, not the real you. You’ll say, “he doesn’t understand me,” no because you’re locked up. Why is it so important that you don’t randomly sleep with guys? Because they can lock your soul up so much that you can’t even reach Christ. Jesus doesn’t care if you’ve had 100 guys, if you ask “Lord make me whole again,” He will make you fresh and clean to have the right person. He flushes all that mess out of you, and now your head is straight. When you see a guy you might fall in love with, he’ll look at your differently and say “she is fresh.” When you get together, it will be like the very first time. The point is, He will make you new again. While you are in your new state, look upon Me I am your husband now, I’m your friend, confidant and companion. When someone is good enough to get My girl, I’ll release her to him because I already know that she is fresh, and she has the Holy Ghost who is leading and guiding her. For a woman if the inside is not clean, ain’t nothing gonna happen down below in the oven. Satan knows that. That is because he goes after the woman on the inside, mentally, and on the outside physically with men.

 

Matthew 15:11

Not that which goeth into the mouth defileth a man; but that which cometh out of the mouth, this defileth a man.

 

There is nothing goes into a womb-man that defiles her, it’s what comes out of the womb-man that defiles her. Because out of the mouth flows the abundance of the heart. So if I eat cucumbers and candies and oranges and grapes and bananas, that won’t defile me. It is whatever I put into my soul that will defile me. So when that man has slept with you and placed part of his soul in you, its going to come out of your mouth. Women if you haven’t known a man, don’t. If you’ve known a man and God has made you new, don’t go back again. God will send you a man. I don’t care how the urges come, don’t put yourself in that situation to cause an urge. Make sure you fall in love with Jesus first before you get into a relationship. God wants us to understand that once He has you, and allows you to keep you, He won’t let anyone come into your life again who will destroy your physiology and lock everyone else out, except those demons that locked themselves in. Wait on the Lord. If you wait on Him, when He gives you that person, it won’t be buttercups and lollipops all the time, you will have stormy days. That is because two are trying to become one. So you ride the storm. We just have to understand that we must not worry about when he is coming but worry how God is going to meet us next.

It’s an awesome thing to wait. The Lord never forgets. Otherwise you’re bound to repeat over and over again.

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A Great Falling Away

In this time that we’re living in, we’ve seen men, women and children, locked up, hooked on and gravitating to the lifestyles and mindsets of their society and the world around them. They’re easily being led down the wrong road. They have been convinced to see that “do what you what to do, its fine with society.” We have seen lesbianism and homosexuality, run rampant, like it did with Sodom and Gomorrah. In so much that the very House of God is being overrun. The Bible says in the last days that people will say wrong is right, and right is wrong. We have seen our leaders let down the future generation. We have seen parents and leaders condoning living together, men and women living together out of the sanctity of marriage. Saying it is ok for teenagers to have premarital sex, don’t worry about marriage, just enjoy yourself, you are free to do that. We have seen it all over the world. This mindset too has also infiltrated the Body of Christ. In our local centers and Churches, in our local school systems, there is nobody standing up it seems anymore for those things the Bible says are right. We have seen devil worship, voodoo, we have seen witchcraft, we have seen the church of Satan risen and begin to flourish in this world today. They have even erected statues of Satan. The world is boldly stepping out on what they believe. I ask you, where are the men and women of God today?

2 Thessalonians 2:1-3

Now we beseech you, brethren, by the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ, and by our gathering together unto him That ye be not soon shaken in mind, or be troubled, neither by spirit, nor by word, nor by letter as from us, as that the day of Christ is at hand. Let no man deceive you by any means:

This is letting you know that there will be multiple forms of deception that as a Child of God you will be dealing with. With the things happening in the world today, people are being deceived that what they are doing is ok with society, daring to say its ok with God.

2 Thessalonias 2:3-7

for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;  Who opposeth and exalteth himself above all that is called God, or that is worshipped; so that he as God sitteth in the temple of God, shewing himself that he is God. Remember ye not, that, when I was yet with you, I told you these things? And now ye know what withholdeth that he might be revealed in his time. For the mystery of iniquity doth already work: only he who now letteth will let, until he be taken out of the way.

If we correlate the 3rd verse and 7th verse:  “Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition; For the mystery of iniquity doth already work:”

There is, the Bible says, a way that seems right to a man, woman, or child, but the result of that is the way of death. I notice that in the USA, people are caught up on semantics. They are caught up on someone else who is popular on the TV or Radio and they being to take their words, as words from God. Thereby, they begin to minister a thought pattern that is not conducive to their children, to their families and to their friends. Know this, this is taking place in the House of God as well. People are bringing up every kind of excuse there is as to why they can’t attend, why they won’t attend. Things like its too far. I don’t have any clothes. I don’t have any shoes. I don’t have any money. I don’t know anyone. Isn’t it amazing how we bring up so many different excuses when its only a benefit and not a detriment by coming and being in the House of God? People today “are caught up with having fun.” I can’t have fun. If I can’t have fun I don’t want to be a part of it. I ask you again, where are the people of God? Are you caught up in life situations, or worldly temptation? Does this world mean to you than your soul?

The problem that most people have in our society today as well is that they can’t let go of the past. They can’t let go of the memories. You must realize if you linger in the past, it will become your future. Why are people in the House of God fighting, complaining, accusing, hating their fellow sisters and brothers in the House of God? The Word of God tells us because they are desiring to possess and to have what their brothers or sisters own or possess. Where has the Church failed in that area? Have our leaders put more trust in themselves more than God? Have leaders put more trust in their stuff over God? I ask you again, where are the people of God?

 

2 Thessalonians 2:8-9

And then shall that Wicked be revealed, whom the Lord shall consume with the spirit of his mouth, and shall destroy with the brightness of his coming: Even him, whose coming is after the working of Satan with all power and signs and lying wonders,

 

Satan has his own form of special effects. Because he will do whatever it takes to keep your eyes covered as in the world or as Children of God to delay you or turn you back. A lot of times what the people of God fail to remember is this: we’re not trying to beat Satan or fight him. He alreay lost when he came against God. He is a defeated foe. If you know that then you shouldn’t allow that to make you afraid. It should convience you to try to recover some of the damage that Satan and his demons has inflicted upon men, women and children. As people of God we have to restore men and women in our society, if they desire to be free from themselves.

 

2 Thessalonians 2:10

And with all deceivableness of unrighteousness in them that perish; because they received not the love of the truth, that they might be saved.

 

He’s going to deceive you if you turn a deaf ear to the truth. Every man woman and child knows the truth. It’s just we refuse to walk in it because it confines us. I can’t enjoy myself. I can’t do what I want to do. So I make up rules and lies so I can continue to walk in confusion.

2 Thessalonians 2:11

And for this cause God shall send them strong delusion, that they should believe a lie:

You know what a strong delusion is? A strong deception. Its like sending them a fraudulent or subjective error.

2 Thessalonians 2:12

That they all might be damned who believed not the truth, but had pleasure in unrighteousness.

The time is coming that people are convinced that what they are doing is correct. You know that a man with a man or a woman with a woman wrong. So why so you continue to walk in that mess? Saying they can find happiness. This is a strong delusion. Then our government makes laws that if we mention it or talk about it you can go to court. What kind of thing is that? They are making laws that we should treat homosexuals as normal people, when they are not normal but abnormal. I put a challenge to all homosexual and lesbians. Procreation of a man and woman brings about a product, that is a living life that has a soul. Can a man and another man procreate? Or a Woman and another woman procreate? So anyone who comes and says that they are a family is lying, because their concept of a family has been widely misused. Then you begin to teach the next generation that it is ok. Knowing that if you put two women together on an island and tell them to prorate, come back in 2 years time wanting to see the population to increase. If you come back to that island that has not had influence from anyone else, you will not find any increase, and if anything, one of the woman may have died. So why is the church entertaining having gay pastors, lesbian bishops…why is the church even entertaining that when it is an abomination of God? He destroyed whole cities, burned them to the ashes because of the same mess that they are doing now all over the world. How do we have a government that is so off? Because they’ve been influenced by a Satantic belief system, which in that system its ok for men and men and women and women to be together. Because Satan know to stop humans from being born, he needs to flip the mind of men and woman, so that when they die, there is not life left behind. These people know they can’t have children, so the want to adopt children so they can quantify themselves as a family. There should be a law against homosexuals adopting children, because that same skewed mentality will be taught to that child. I say again where are the people of God?

Are you afraid to stand up for what you know is the truth? Are you afraid to stand up for the truth? Or you don’t want to offend or hurt someone else feelings? The Bible says that we’re going to be hated because we hold people accountable to their sin. If you want to be loved by the world, then you need to look where you are standing with God. If you believe in Him, how long halt you between 2 opinions? Do you serve God or society? If you are a Child of God you will offend somebody. They killed Christ on the cross because He kicked down the money changes and the thieves saying My house you’ve made a den of thieves. How will you want to go back with the Lord, when you love the world? We need not walk in our flesh. Who do you serve? You say you serve Christ, but you care about what they say about you. You see what happened to Lot’s wife, she turned back to look at Sodom and Gomorrah and was turned to a pillar of salt. The Bible tells us if salt looses its saltiness what use it is? To be trodden over by men. Its the same thing with sugar if it has no sweet taste what good is it? The Lord said if you are My child you will offend someone. If you are more concerned about what the world says about you, maybe you never left the world. Maybe in your mind or heart you are holding on to a memory of the world. If so, you need to go back to the alter, check yourself before you wreck yourself. There is a way that seems right to a man but the end thereof is the way of death.

2 Thessalonians 2: 13-15

But we are bound to give thanks alway to God for you, brethren beloved of the Lord, because God hath from the beginning chosen you to salvation through sanctification of the Spirit and belief of the truth: Whereunto he called you by our gospel, to the obtaining of the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, brethren, stand fast, and hold the traditions which ye have been taught, whether by word, or our epistle.

 

Never give up, never surrender is the the 15th verse is saying.

2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

Now our Lord Jesus Christ himself, and God, even our Father, which hath loved us, and hath given us everlasting consolation and good hope through grace, Comfort your hearts, and stablish you in every good word and work.

So God has already established you. He has given you a foundation, His grace, hope, His glory. So why look back over what has happened in the past, and make the past become your future? The Bible tells us no man having to put his hand on the plow and look backwards, because your plowing forward, you don’t look back. God wants us to look forward. Some of us need to break up that fallow ground in our lives, so that we could put a better foundation in our relationship with Christ, so that we will be able to stand in those times of trouble. We know that our hopes comes from God, and our lives are hidden in God. We need to have a better understanding of who He is in our life. Lean not to your own understanding, but in all your ways acknowledge God and He shall direct your path.

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Abused Woman Syndrome

What is a syndrome? If you look at the understanding, and what it brings about…complication of the mind and heart. In other words, you situation in your life has taken over your mind first of all, and then it begins to exhibit its self within your body. Whether it is in health, eating habits, sleeping habits or whatever. But it will exhibit itself in your body as well.

If perchance you are a Child of God and you are hearing this, know that it also will manifest itself in your walk with God. Because of the nature of the incident or situation that has transpired in your life, you take it to heart; we think it doesn’t affect us. We say “I’m affected a little bit.” But we will not own up to the amount effect is taking place, and it is usually a great deal. But we try to so called surfacely say that its not. But its when we get in those quiet moments alone that we begin to scream out, holler out, cry and the we being to point fingers at ourselves and we begin to say why did I do this what did I do…what did I do. You’ve got to realized that as a Child of God its not what you did, its what the enemy has done to you. When you allow the enemy’s tactics to dewell in your heart and mind then you allow the enemy’s mindset to become a part of your mindset, you will reap the fruit’s of that thought pattern.

As of late I’ve been getting a lot of individuals, females, who are going through situations in their lives. It’s not as though its exclusive to females, its also with males, I have been getting a lot of contact and comments from females. I feel that satan what’s to stop or check the last hope that he has in the Church and world, and that is by attacking women on a regular basis. The reason why I’m saying that is because, he basically has a lot of men caught up in the mind set of PMS: Power, Money and Sex. So one of the last things that he needs to do is to disrupt the flow of the Church and world is to go after the weaker sex. They say the praying mother’s of the Church who help and directed the young we, they say well, if you’ve got a good man or a good woman, he wants to go after them. So to totally disrupt the flow of God in House of God, he will go after the women in the church. Whether its by looking for a man which they shouldn’t be, or whether through their husbands who aren’t in the Church, or causing them to get involved with a mate or potential mate who isn’t in the Church. Ladies, before I continue on let me say this, if you are a child of God, calling yourself to be a woman of God, you should not be looking for at mate. In the book of Proverb 18:22, it’s saids Whoso findeth a wife, not a man or a husband finds a good thing. You should allow God to find your mate. You should not be out there on the hunt or the search nor on the dating scene. What you see is not what your going to get. And by all means, the bible says not to be unequally yoked.

2 Corinthians 6:14 Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? and what communion hath light with darkness?

If you are a Woman of God, in the House of God, you should not be dating but courting one man period. You should not be, especially dating men in the world. When the Word of God says unequally yoked, it’s like  when you want to pray, he wants to party, when you want to go Church, he wants to go to the bar, when you want to have family time, he wants to go out and be with his friends. Everything you want to do of the Lord, he/she is totally against that flow or mindset.

Having said all that, understand this, Satan is sifting us like wheat. Satan wants to destroy you, not abruptly, but slow your progress, delay your move in God, your communication with God; he wants to cause disruption in your walk. If he can cause disruption in your walk with God, you will not be where you should be at the right time, so God can use you and or bless you. You will not hear your call in God, nor understand your call in God because Satan come to kill, steal, and destroy. I don’t mean physically all the time, but destroy your mind, destroy your worship, destroy your physical time, destroy your communication with your loved ones or husband, to take your life in control to make you do what he wants you to do, to disrupt the move of God. As you allow satan to use the vices that you are weak in, whether it be men, whether it be food, whether it be clothing, whether it be lifestyle or whether it be the cares of the life, whether it be your children, whether it be desires, Satan will use all those avenues to deter you from your walk, from your talk, and from your mission in God to do the will of God. So, as you allow yourself, if you are a true woman of God, if you will allow God to order you steps, to take and make your steps sure, then you won’t fall, you won’t go out of balance, or to your left or right. There is a powerful man of God who is out there who can’t achieve his full potential in Christ unless he’s got that full potential woman in Christ at his side. The Bible has a particular structure that He set from the beginning. He said there is the man who blessings flow through, there is the woman, then there is the family. So the structure of God is, man is the head, the woman, and then the family. Satan’s structure is woman’s the head, man is the subordinate, and the family is 3rd. If you notice in our society today, everything is depicted as woman this woman this, even the Statue of Liberty, which is also know as the Statute of Isis is a woman in the harbor of New York. Satan wants to esteem the woman higher than man. That is the reason why he spoke to Eve. He didn’t speak to Adam, he spoke to Eve, pronouncing and restructuring what God had always set in place, man first. He knew that if he could convince the woman, he’s got her because she is the weaker vessel. She has three things that work for her that make her susceptible to the will of Satan. 1) Emotions 2)The desire of love of someone 3) Family. Those 3 things Satan has used against women throughout all history whether Biblical or natural, because those things he can control. As of late, he has thrown another one in, namely  power or control of a situation. That is a form of witchcraft and a lot of women operate in that unaware.

Having said that, the whole structure of how Satan wants to defeat you. First of all, a woman should never look for a mate. The word of God explains it very clearly.

Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the Lord. Proverbs 18:22

Not she who finds herself a husband finds a good thing. You all have been looking for a good thing, and you can’t find a good thing because that is only found by God for you. Because what you will find is what Satan wants you to have that will deter, destroy and corrupt your life and your walk with God. Some say, “Pastor, well I can’t wait! I need to have a man, I’ve got to have a man.” It is amazing to me a woman can carry a baby for 9 months. She isn’t trying to cut it out and get it out of her. But you can’t wait for God’s will to be perfected in your life when looking for a mate? Some of you don’t even need a mate. Some of you just need a personal relationship with God, because having a mate will take you away from the will of God in your life. Also, it will cause you to lose focus in your walk with God. For those woman whom God will assign to have a mate, He will bring that mate to you.

Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the Lord. Proverbs 18:22

If your mind is so caught up on looking for one, or other things instead of looking for God, you will never find him. Looking for love in all the wrong places, looking for love in too many faces, and the song writer writes. What should a woman do, in the times of burning? The word of God says very simple:

Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. Isaiah 26:3.

“Well I don’t want to read the Bible every time I get hot, I can’t read, I can’t focus.” There are a lot of time where you will have to change your location, change your surroundings, because it you don’t it will cause you to want to fulfill that fleshly lust, especially for the young women who are out there. The older women should be a little more mature. I think above all things the older women should teach the young woman how to be wives (Timothy 2:3). They aren’t doing that today. A lot of the focus of the young women is to do what they want to do; to look for a man. If you teach them how to be a woman of God, and I don’t mean how to be a mother Theresa or to preach and teach, I mean how to be sober, how to have peace in their minds and hearts, knowing that God is going to fulfill their desires that are good for them. Not all the time are our desires what God wants for us. We think that what we want, God wants for us; not really. We have to really understand that our purpose in asking God, is His will for our lives. So when we ask God, we should be asking for patience so that we may be able to operate in Him with patience, and run that race, saying “Lord prepare me for the husband that is for me.” I don’t want anybody to steal my good thing, because I didn’t know how to receive it or wait for it. A lot of things that come upon us in relationship with God that we can’t do is because we have our own agenda. We only came to God because we found out that He’ll answer what we want. He is not a genie in a bottle, neither is he a box of good gift givings for you. You can’t just rub the side of your Bible and say in Jesus Name and its so. That is not how He works.

While you are getting yourself right in Him, while you are temperate and while you are gaining longsuffering, and while you are working toward being sober, while you are working toward being clear of heart and mind, while you are working toward having faith and patience, and while you are building up your true holy faith in Him, He will be preparing your husband for you. If you can’t wait for Him to do that, then maybe you don’t need one. A lot of women don’t realize that what causes the stress and hardship is moving in your own time, and not in Gods. What do you mean by that, well, when you try to set up your own time schedule for your life for what you want to achieve, you can’t see what tomorrow holds, God can. You don’t know the heart of the individuals that are around you, God does. You do not know what God’s will is for your life as of yet because you are looking to do things in your own time. Its good to have goals, but your goals should be based upon, “God what is good for me?” You should be asking our Lord and savior Jesus Christ, “What can I do to prepare me for that good thing that you have for me?

The Children of Israel cried for years being held captive in Israel saying “we want the messiah, we want to be delivered from our stress, oh Lord deliver us from our oppressors.” During that time they were in Egypt, a lot of them took on the mindsets, habits and traditions of worship of other gods such as Anubis, Isis, Osiris; all these different gods. Even though they said when will we be delivered, the point of the fact is when God brought forth a deliver he wasn’t received. They were looking for the deliver to come with an army and wipe out all of the Egyptians and take them back and free them from their situation. When they got free by God’s powerful, merciful hand through his servant Moses; on the journey home, they couldn’t leave Egypt behind them. Some of you all can’t leave the mess of the world behind you. You hold on to that same mess and you bring it right over into your point of getting to Jordan, not realizing that that mindset you had before you came into Christ, has to be gone. Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus (Philipians 2:5). Some of us are still holding Egypt in our hearts and minds; the times when we went out to have a good time and party; we can not let that go because those felt good. But they only felt good from a fleshly state. Some of us can’t let go of anger; do this to me and I’ll do that to you. Some of the things we’re experiencing today in our lives, stem from the mindset we had before we knew Christ. Getting back to the Children of Israel, after being on the way journey to Jordan, and as you’re on your walk in Christ to get to where He desires you to be, your going to find hickups and problems along the way. Same thing with the Children of Israel, they had battles and fights that they had to deal with along the way. Even when their leader Moses had fallen along the way, the Children of Israel were still to continue to go and make it to Mt. Sini, that is the point of deliverance where Christ is in their life. The same way with you and your walk, trying to make it, to the end, and in the process of doing that, you get to where there is a wall, and that wall is that memory of the past, how you use to act, live and be. The Children of Israel got to a mountain where they’d gotten tired along their journey, complaining they didn’t have enough food and water. We complain to the Lord that we don’t have enough time for Him, or time to do this or that. The Lord says wait we’ll get to that point, you just be obedient to My will, deterring not right or left. The Children of Israel continued on, when they got to the mountain of God and saw the presence of God around them. When they got to that aspect of their life, they were waiting for instructions from God, and while the man of God was there to wait and go and receive instruction, the people had a simple task to do: just wait on God, Hallelujah. In your walk, when you get to the point where you don’t think you can go anywhere, you feel that this is where God wants you, then you need to wait on God. In the process of waiting, Satan is not going to stop what he is doing, what he has been doing to your life all along, persuading, messing you up jacking your spirit all up. He is going to bring the right one along to you, the one whom you think may be right, he will bring up situations right there in your life, and the Lord says wait on Me. He is going to come, though he tarry, He will be there. The Children of Israel could not wait; as soon as the Man of God left their presence, the man who led them from Egypt, they did what came natural to them. Their past became their present. They began to act like they were in Egypt, even though they were free from Egypt. That is the problem we see in the Church today. Many folk get freed from their Egypt in their life, but they don’t know they’re free. When they’re in the presence of being free, they begin to wonder back to their thought when they were in bondage. That is what they desire because that is all they knew, even though they cried to be free. So when they got free, and were in the wilderness, they didn’t have anything to do in their mind. They saw all the great miracles, parting the Red Sea, Moses and the rock gushing with water, the battles they won, but they went back to what they knew in their flesh. This is what we do as the Men and Women of God, we go back and say we know what this situation is about what that situation is about because we have images and pictures of it, thought patterns, I like that emotional feeling. So we long for those things.Satan will bring back that emotion and that physical feeling in your body. Next thing you know you’re performing those things that you did before you knew Christ, and you get swallowed up in it. What happened to the wait on God moment? God had to be put on the back burner because now I’m experiencing who I am, what I am and what I want to do. So now what takes place in your life is an abrupt stop in the walk and growth in Christ. Now you have been captivated by the sins of the past. If you don’t let the sins of the past disappear from your past, they will become your future. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God (Romans 12:2). How do you get a renewed mind? …whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report (Philippians 4:8) think on these things in the Name of Jesus, and not in your flesh. These are the problems that we, who are called the people of God, the Body of God, the love of God, all these things, everything, these are the people who could not wait.

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